Peeli Roshni: The Light of Happiness

पीली सी उस रोशनी में एक बार नहाई थी मैं...जाने वो कौन सा मोड़ था जहां मंजिल खो गयी, फिर ना वो रात आई, ना कभी सहर हुई... खो गयी मैं चलते-चलते उस पीली रोशनी की तलाश में...     

Sometimes your heart declines to emote...there is a strange void. An emptiness that neither kills nor cures... Almost what Shakespeare's Hamlet felt: "I'm sad because I'm not happy..."
Unable to feel the emotions that run deep inside...the heart seems static...eyes blank. Looking at the clouds she wonders if it would rain again. A strange connect she has with water... almost imitating her feelings.

But it's been days, the rain doesn't seem to touch a chord in her heart the way water stays on an oily surface but fails to slip inside... she has not been sad in the real sense... nor can she feel the happiness... She stands numb in her balcony looking at the wet leaves on the tree. She doesn't know what she wants now...Giving away the happy feeling to make someone happy...yet be happy... is it possible...she just wonders...
She can't see the way but the road on which she walks, in search of the yellow light she once saw...